Kobayashi Maru

“It is possible to commit no mistakes and still lose. That is not a weakness; that is life.” ~Jean Luc Picard.

"I don't know when to quit." ~Judy Hopps

Someone faced a tragedy

And suddenly the spotlight was on me

And I became a deer in the headlights.

I don't know how to be a leader.

I never wanted to be a leader.

I am so tired of always being in charge.

Then we lost someone else,

Then an even bigger tragedy

And even a few more fires.

Thunderstorms, power outages, tornado warnings.

My heart rate and breathing went through the roof,

and thunder pounded in my ears.

I don't believe in a no-win scenario.

As much as I hate to admit it,

I'm a stubborn ass, my birth father's child.

I felt like Captain Kirk,

Facing the impossible head on,

Internally screaming.

I'm so tired of always being strong

Always powering through;

What else is there for me to do?

So I took a few deep breaths,

Screaming 'stupid sonofabitch motherfucker!" inside my head

And tried to think of a positive spin.

While I was thinking, I vented

About the thoughts going through my head,

And remembered all the other times

I saw things through to the end.

I remembered the beautiful times I'd received,

My own personal rainbow,

I'll see again next season.

Suddenly, there was a light in the darkness,

Another incredible artist,

Who helped me smile through my tears.

Tomorrow is another day,

A monumental day in history,

And it's going to be under a rainbow.